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Tales of New York City

My collection of linked short stories “The Claudia Stories, Tales of New York City” was published in April and is now available to order through indie bookstores, books.org and on-line retailers.

The Claudia Stories

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Claudia Marron has an interview a world away from her home in Brooklyn. The ninety minute trip through the labyrinth of New York City reveals the imaginative tales of the people she sees in her neighborhood and the strangers who populate the landscape of traveling to the upper east side of Manhattan.

The immigrants who run the local bodega, Sweet Hearts; a middle schooler who tames the bullies on the local bus; the woman with turquoise eyes rehearsing her programming pitch at Telemundo; and the nanny who quotes Eleanor Roosevelt, are some of the fourteen characters linked by Claudia’s journey.

In these stories, the strangers she passes have lives just waiting to be imagined. These are the inhabitants of a complicated city; they have so much more to them than what we see: invisible people who brush up against us on an ordinary day.

What power do these momentary connections have for Claudia and for us?

Who’s Afraid of Virginia Woolf

“I feel entirely dehumanized by the sun now and wish for fog, snow, rain and humanity.”

Virginia Woolf – letter to Edward Sackville West, written c.September 1926

Yarmouth, Nova Scotia

I keep running into Virginia this summer, one full of sun and heat in New England, and more often than not she has the words I have been thinking.

My book club read To The Lighthouse. Here again, Virginia hit a chord: time is elusive, people never say what they are thinking, and especially: take care for all things are temporal.

“And all the lives we ever lived and all the lives to be are full of trees and changing leaves.”

To The Lighthouse

Serendipitously a new play premiered at a local theatre company. Brilliant writing by Lindsay Joelle. A prequel to Mrs. Dalloway

Lost and Found

Renata Stokes glanced over her shoulder. Everything worth keeping was in the back of her old Saab station wagon. The car had never fit into the persona she cultivated of being a free spirit, but tonight it was exactly what she needed. The rear seats had been pushed down to make room for several duffle bags of clothes, two boxes of books, and a large cooler, all for her detour north to visit her mother before heading west.

When ‘check oil’ appeared on the instrument panel, she was between Albany and Saratoga Springs; it was a sign to stop. The lack of traffic on the Northway had given her the unwise confidence to press the speed limit. Renata pulled over; she’d been driving for eight hours. Once off the road, she pushed the hazard light on and closed her eyes.

A state trooper knocking on the hood woke her. Renata jumped. Still in a fog of deep sleep she tried to make sense of the large man in uniform peering into her car, making a hand gesture to open the window. 

“I was tired.” She turned her eyes away from the flashlight in his left hand. She wanted to explain how tired she really was, how she just needed to sleep for a month far away from memories in a place where she didn’t have to take care of anyone. She wanted to tell him about the one last person she needed to say goodbye to.

“Safer to pull into a truck stop, miss.” He asked to see her license and registration. While she dug into the glove compartment, he directed his interrogation at her possessions. “Anything I need to be concerned about back here?” he asked.

There was a smirk on his face when she turned back to face him.

“Moving day,” she said.

“Where’re you going? Canada?” Taking the papers she passed to him, he closely examined her picture on the license. Shinning the beam on her face he said, “Sit tight.”

The pulsating glare from the flashing lights, spun around the interior of the Saab, illuminating the bags and boxes. The contents danced in the kaleidoscopic glow. Renata could barely make out the trooper’s dark form sitting in the cruiser. She watched him through the rear-view mirror, patiently waiting for his verdict.

“This all checks out.” He passed her papers through the open window. “You know your car will be searched at the border.”

“Thanks, officer.” She smiled. “I’m not going that far.”

“The truck stop is just five miles up.” He tapped the roof. “Be careful.”

The rest area had a gas station a short distance from two large parking areas, its glow intruding into the star-filled sky. The semis were lined up in double file on a darkened end of one lot. The eighteen wheel long-haulers nestled between a few flat beds carrying well wrapped cargo were at the other end. As she drove slowly past them, it was too dark to make out if the drivers were dozing in their seats or resting somewhere in the back of the cabs. Renata pulled her car under a single streetlamp near the entrance to a brick building with a rest room sign. It was three o’clock and too early for the sky to reveal anything more than the constellations. She made sure her doors were locked.

The next morning, the station had a line of trucks waiting for fuel. A scrawny mutt tied to a post was barking. She pulled the Saab next to the attendant’s booth and waited patiently. The young worker looked harried, as if he would start growling and bark, too, if anyone wanted more than gas. Renata left the car and went over to the dog; it seemed to calm down as she came closer, wagging his tail, and pressing down on his front paws ready to play. She bent over and patted his head. The leash was too short for the pup to follow her back to a bench where she intended to sit and wait for the kid’s attention.

 “What’s your name?” she called over to the dog.

 He stopped hopelessly thrusting himself toward her and sat down with what seemed like a sigh.

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About The Books

Detective Benjamin Crisp was spending his first night alone. The house he shared with his wife of forty years seemed to echo the sounds of another lifetime, one filled with laughter, children, and dogs. The children were grown now. But he couldn’t go into a room without seeing them all.

Nora had left him for a man she met at a book club. Benjamin shook his head at the reflection in the glass cabinet above the counter where he was fixing a sandwich for dinner.

A beer, a sandwich, and Monday Night Football, what could be better. And then he remembered how Nora had always tried to cook something special, he could envision her across the room busily chopping onions, while one of the dogs, probably Dusty, was jumping for a treat.

He put his meal on a tray, grabbed a paper towel and sighed— Nora always used cloth napkins. Upstairs the Raiders would take his mind off the past.

Nora had said she would wait till after his retirement party to leave. She hadn’t wanted him to be embarrassed in front of the people he’d worked with for thirty-five years. She’d showed up in a new dress. She’d been almost giddy. She looked younger. That was Friday night. Nora had spent the weekend packing. “I don’t really want to take much. Just my books, of course.” She’d put a few empty boxes next to the bookcase and started taking what she wanted. “I’m leaving you history, the civil war, and some biography. What about travel?”

“I don’t care.” His anger had left him, too. “The books aren’t important to me,” he’d said watching her till she turned around.

“What,” she’d said.

“How can you be so, so, matter of fact?” he’d asked 

He hadn’t seen it coming, the affair. Once he found out about it, he thought it wouldn’t last. He had seen this story play out too many times. The woman would get clingy and the man, always married with a family, would get cold feet. Nora and the book club man weren’t at that stage yet. It would come soon enough, and he could wait. Nora was moving into a small apartment in town in anticipation of the book club man’s arrival.

“About the books?” She’d laughed and ran a dust rag around the edges of a volume.

“I’m trying to be civil, Benny. I don’t want to fight. We’ve got to put on a good face when we call the kids.”

He remembered going into the bathroom, running the water, and crying. He wasn’t going to cry again, not over Nora.

On his second day of retirement, there was nothing to rush for. He stared at the ceiling; it was 5:30 in the morning. You’ve got to have a plan—wake up the first day and have someplace to be, someone who is waiting for you. Decide.

In the living room the wall of bookcases appeared as a toothless hag, large gaps in alternating shelves laughing at him. Benny shuffled into the kitchen to start the coffee. He waited while the machine slowly dripped out the seconds. Nora had left her mugs, the ones with quotes he had failed to see the humor in. He pulled out his favorite chipped one and filled it: black and strong. 

I bet book club man has to have two teaspoons of sugar and milk. He went back into the living room to assess the damage on the shelves. He was still a detective, after all, what was left is just as important as what was taken. 

Nora had taken the poetry and left the history. She’d taken most of the novels, but left him the McMurtry, T. H. White and his collection of Spillane. He took a sip of coffee and stood back. Travel. He approached the shelf filled with places they had planned to go. He put his mug down, closed his eyes, and ran his index finger across the spines labeled with countries across the globe. Interesting choice, Benny. He took the book on Tahiti into the kitchen and set the table.

He considered his options for breakfast, the usual wouldn’t do. In the freezer, shoving pot pies and packages of peas and corn around, behind the waffles, he found what he was looking for: a frozen piece of wedding cake.

“About The Books” was published on 10/10/23 in CafeLitMagazine

Brothers

Kevin McCarthy jogged up the subway steps with such exuberance that the few souls going in the opposite direction at 5:30 in the morning moved aside. At the top of the stairs he inhaled the scent of the city, still stale from the night before.

Under a sign marked Service Entrance, a path led past trash barrels, toward a black steel door. This was not Kevin’s first job in the brotherhood—that’s what his father called the union. When he reached for the buzzer, the rubber band twisted around his wrist, as tight as he could stand it, pulled at the hairs on his arm. The tug against his skin was to remind him of the role he was playing: a kid without experience.

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Magical Thinking

Magical Thinking

            My mother believed in magic. Saint Anthony and the Virgin stayed with her long after she left Sister Angelina and the convent school in Westwood, California, where she lived for ten years of her adolescence. Though she stopped “practicing” before I was born, those quick little prayers of hers seeped into my childhood memory. Even now, I might call out for a saint to find what is lost and more often than not, the Holy Family’s name is taken not in prayer.

            What my mother did observe was spiritual examination from a mystical confluence of numbers and signs. Devoted to astrology, she insisted on sending me alerts of my future from whatever part of the globe she was living. For twenty years, London’s Daily Mail was my regular source of what was going to happen to me next. Little clippings, inserted in the tissue thin airmail letters of correspondence, pointed the way. Once, for Christmas, I received a twenty-page chart with astrological drawings of exactly what each month of the new year held for me.

            I can’t deny that there were times in my life that a little magical thinking helped. Just to know that things were “looking up” despite Mercury being in retrograde gave me a positive outlook. I asked her once: how was it that everyone born in October had the same future. Maybe it was after this heart felt query, she spent a small fortune on a chart that was based on my exact time of birth and the longitude and latitude of New York City. 

My mother wanted to know the birthday of every boyfriend, and, of course, once I was married my husband’s future was a constant source of revelation.

            A stranger would say they are Gemini, and my mother would raise her eyebrows, sigh, and begin a quick assessment, with a little advice tossed in for good measure.

Astrology was always there, but for a while numerology was added. Tarot readings lasted several years. Finally, it was the palm that begged for her devotion. 

“The right is what you are born with, the left is what you make of your life,” she always started. She would curl my hand into hers and look for creases below my pinky finger. “You will have two children, she pointed to the folds. Holding my palm open, she looked for mounds and crosses that signified wealth. “There, you see,” she said, as she directed me to one line or another.

I often watched her take the hand of a new acquaintance, turning it over in hers, and begin to read. They were enraptured. No one ever pulled away. Maybe it was her touch as she traced her finger across their palm, or maybe it was that they were getting so much attention and energy from her.

It would be interesting if we, unknowing sleep walkers, have destinies  based on the latitude and longitude of where we were born and what stars were in a certain position in the heavens at the hour of our birth.  

“Pisces – With a great dose of idealism, you often imagine that the world is in the palm of your hand.

My mother was born on March nineteenth, Pisces on the cusp of Aries or rebirth. She died ten years ago in June at the age of eighty-six. On the first  anniversary of her death, a robin crashed into our patio window. Unfazed the bird lingered on a branch and then moved to the railing of our deck. It waited until it was duly noticed. That might have been a coincidence, but the following year, and for two years after that, on the same date, a robin flew against the window and appeared to be expecting me to recognize her.

End

This essay is being published in the print anniversary edition of Beyond Words International Literary Magazine (November 2021)

The Night Watch

August was relentless, night provided little relief. Peter tossed off his sheets and stared at the ceiling, a blank canvas for memories. When the morning light finally filtered through the blinds and the insects announced the fourth day of a heat wave, he turned away from the window and thought of the people who had lived in his house. They came and went in such a haphazard pattern that Peter had forgotten most of their names. Only one seemed to endure.

Mr. Hayakawa, the painter who rented the parlor floor was Peter’s original tenant. He wanted the high ceilings and a certain kind of light from the back windows. The message on the bulletin board of the ‘High and Dry’ Laundry read: Artist seeking parlor floor rental. North light wanted. Very clean, very quiet will pay rent in advance.

Paying in advance was all Peter needed to know; money was short in those days—his job at the post office didn’t cover the heating bill and taxes on the house. His sister had gotten married and moved out of the second floor flat with her husband to some place in Ohio. Peter had lost track of her there. A young couple took that apartment and now they had grown to a family of four, squeezing into the small two-bedroom space.

The third floor had cycled through a cast of singles. When the sound of roof top parties shifted to baby showers, Peter knew it was only a matter a time before a new fresh-faced tenant would appear.

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Talk To Me

At three months of age, Maria Lopez Ruiz’s eyes turned blue. Not just any ordinary blue, but turquoise, the color of the sea near Porto San Sebastian, where Sophia Lopez Vargas, Maria’s maternal grandmother, lived. She, too, had turquoise eyes.

            It was a sign; Maria’s brown-eyed mother told the rest of the family that her child, the fifth daughter of a fifth daughter, would be a woman of great importance.

             Maria’s father worked at a grand resort in Las Almandas, which was over three hundred miles from Porto San Sebastian. Because of the distance, he only came home twice a year: the month of August and the week of his birthday.

It was in January of Maria’s sixth year that her mother died with the fever, leaving the family adrift. Maria moved in with her grandmother, Sophia, in the small house that overlooked the sea.

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            “Being successful, Maria,” her grandmother always began her stories, “requires being in the right place at the right time.” As she continued to braid her granddaughter’s hair, she repeated the adventures that led her to Porto San Sebastian.

“My first marriage was arranged, or that is what my husband believed. He was from Madrid and I was from Las Rozas. He had seen me…” Her grandmother went on to describe how, at the age of fifteen, she had used her turquoise eyes for the first time. “I have not always lived in this quiet village,” she said, ending the story the way, she ended all of her stories. “And you will not, either,” she added.

“When you are fourteen, you will leave here. You will go and live with your oldest sister in a faraway place. You will become independent and a woman of great importance.”

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Maria leaned against a pillar on the platform of the Christopher Street Subway station and rubbed her belly. She was in her fifth month with her first child and the heat was the one thing that felt familiar. Taking a deep breath, she considered how far in ten years she had come to be in this place so removed from San Sebastian.

That evening she told her husband: “If I close my eyes for a moment, I am transported home: the thick air covers me, and I can almost hear the sound of the waves.”

He laughed.

“Why is that funny?” she said.
“That’s not why I laughed it’s just…”

Maria sighed as he kneaded his fingers deep into the arch of her right foot.

“I’m proud of you. Remember when I introduced you to my aunt? We agreed to make her think I was seeking her approval,” he said.

Maria smiled and looked toward a window where the air conditioner hummed relentlessly. A sound so familiar and yet so far away, a steady summer wind rattling her grandmother’s house in Porto San Sebastian before a storm.

“Your aunt took me into her lavender bedroom, she pulled the shades and read my cards by candlelight. I know she whispered the readings to you, mi amor. It was a good thing that you had already proposed marriage, or you might have changed your mind.”

He furrowed his brow.

“You are a beautiful woman,” he said. “When we walk down the street, people stare at you. I don’t think you even notice.”

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It was at the age of twelve that her grandmother told Maria about men who were only interested in the superficial.

“We are like this,” she gestured toward the sea with one hand, as they sat in old wicker chairs on the stone patio sipping cold tea. “Men see what they want to. It is useful.”

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Maria’s boss, Xavier Batista, was one such man, expecting to get his way with anything and everyone he touched. Xavier moved in all the right circles at Telemundo.

“Brilliant!” He clapped his hands. “But, why just New York, Maria? Think bigger. This country is changing. You have a story to tell, use your biography. Remember my mantra: demographics. Women are our audience; this show will speak to them.

“You have been so generous to me, Xavier.” She turned her eyes toward him and could see the heat rising into his face. “If the network buys my show, how will I repay you for your advice?”

He looked at her, smiled and reached out to touch her arm. “Tell your husband who the father is.” When he began to repeat his dream of how they would move to the city of angels together, Maria moved away. “We are meant to be together—a team.”

“It is too soon to talk of these things. My husband thinks…”

He pulled her toward him. “We will work this out.” His face was now flush with color.
For several months Maria let Xavier think what she needed him to.

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A scent of bitter fruit infused the air as Maria felt the rumble of the Number 1 train before its lights turned from the tunnel and flooded the tracks ahead. When she entered the crowded subway car, Maria stood in front of a young woman.

“Oh! Sorry,” the woman said jumping up, offering her seat. Maria sat, closed her eyes, and started to review the presentation of her show Háblame: Talk to Me.

Thirty minutes later, when she walked off the elevator onto the twenty-first floor of an office building in mid-town Manhattan, she spotted her secretary, Julia, leave her cubicle and run toward her.

“The presentation has been postponed; something happened this morning.”

Maria let Julia take her briefcase and watched as the woman put her finger to her lips.

“I’ll explain in your office.” Julia twitched like a small sand bird, weaving her way through the maze of gray cubicles.

As she followed Julia, the young employees, heads focused on screens, sat quietly typing. They didn’t look up. It was not their usual morning buzz over prefabricated walls where they stopped to welcome her.

“Xavier has resigned,” Julia said breathlessly as she closed the office door. “I mean he has been fired—resigned is what his memo to the company said.”

Maria took out her phone and saw for the first time the messages, starting twenty minutes earlier from her staff, multiply with every second.

Julia went over to a table where a carafe of coffee waited to be poured. She turned and looked at her boss.

“Are you surprised?” Maria said looking up from her phone. They had never discussed the rumors about Xavier.

“Some of the interns had problems with him,” Julia said. The cup rattled on the saucer as she walked across the office.

Maria flinched. A few years earlier one of the production assistants told her something suggestive Xavier said to her. She remembered laughing. Now the child inside of her rolled and pulled tight against her.

“Talk to me, while I get up to speed.” Maria sat adjusting a pillow on her back and logged into her computer.

“There’s an executive committee meeting in fifteen minutes.” Julia handed Maria a printout of Xavier’s letter to the company. “I told them you would be there,” she said.

“How are you feeling?” her secretary asked.

“About this…or just in general?”

“You work…worked really closely with Xavier. Did he ever…?” Julia’s voice was trembling.

“Of course not, a total professional since the first day I met him. I’m shocked.” She rested her hand over the kicking inside of her. “Give me a few moments.”

“Can we meet?” read the text from Xavier.

Maria waited and when a second text appeared on her phone she read: “Are you there?”

“Can’t. It’s crazy here,” she responded. She was walking toward the Board Room.

“I need to talk to you,” he wrote.

They all will have stories, Maria thought. Even now, on the other side of the building, the President of Telemundo was finishing telling his to the media.

“None of it is true,” Xavier added.

Maria knew he couldn’t possibly know everything everyone was going to say.

End

This story was published in Adelaide February 2020

Eleanor Was Always With Her

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Today was Harriet’s birthday. She had no special plans. After all, at her age, seventy, birthdays came and went so fast that to call particular attention to one would have been foolish.

Sometimes, when waiting for the bus, Harriet counted on her fingers how many children she had taken care of. She parsed the numbers by years to make it a more manageable diversion. It was easy enough to lose count.

 

After Franklin Roosevelt died, Harriet’s mother, who had a succession of children named for important people, was ready and waiting for Franklin Thurgood Baker to be born. “I’m glad I had you instead of another boy,” she later told her daughter. “You’ll see, women outlive men ‒ we outsmart them, too.”

At ten Eleanor Harriet Baker didn’t know enough men to gauge whether her mother was stating a fact. One day she found an old address book with empty pages and started to use it as a diary, a repository for her thoughts so she could keep the facts straight. Her mother suggested that she include some ideas from her namesake, Eleanor Roosevelt.

Her first family, as she called them, changed her name. They thought Eleanor was not a fitting name for a person of her position and class. So in 1959, her middle name, Harriet, became her first, but Eleanor was always with her. Her first family had no idea who Harriet Tubman was, even though they had the paper delivered every day, and, to Harriet’s amazement, one entire room in their apartment was filled with books. The shelves were from floor to ceiling, encasing two large windows overlooking Fifth Avenue and the park beyond. Harriet was not their regular nanny. Her job, as she told her mother, was to clean up after Miss Hecker.

“I’m in training, that’s what Mrs. Benchley told me.”

“I don’t understand, you pick up after someone who was hired to pick up?”

“There are things that Miss Hecker doesn’t do,” Harriet said firmly.

“Well now, I do believe I’ve heard it all.” Her mother shook her head. “Rich people are surely the strangest humans.” Her mother waited for a reply and when none was forthcoming said, “Here’s one for your little book, Eleanor. It is not fair to ask of others what you are not willing to do yourself.

 

Harriet took Henry, her first child, as she called him, to the park one morning when Miss Hecker had a doctor’s appointment. There, facing the white nannies sitting on the bench across from the black babysitters, Harriet learned her worth.

“They…” The woman sitting next to her turned, and looked at the nannies with blue capes over their white uniforms, busily laughing with each other. “They make two dollars per hour. That’s not fair. Is it? I make fifty cents.” The woman got up and went over to the sandbox to pick up the toys the boy she was watching had discarded. “How old are you, Harriet?” She asked, returning to the bench with two sandy trucks.

“I’m eighteen, why?” Harriet lied and looked down at Henry, who was sleeping in his stroller.

“No, you’re not; you’re fifteen if you’re a day. Those people are taking advantage of you. How much do you get paid for working six days a week?”

“Mrs. Benchley told me not tell anyone how much I was being paid.”

“And why do you suppose that is?”

Harriet remembered she would have been too afraid to ask for a raise. But it didn’t matter because the Benchley’s were going away for the summer. They were taking Miss Hecker with them, and they didn’t need her anymore. She missed Henry for a while but not deeply.

 

Harriet tapped her fingers against the side of her cotton dress and started counting slowly. She tried to remember all of the children who came after Henry. The family she worked for now needed her to work nights. They wanted her to be at their apartment when their daytime help left and leave when the help returned in the morning. When Harriet arrived at six she fed the children, gave them a bath and presented them to their parents for an evening story. By this time it was eight and, while the children were being read to, Harriet put away the toys scattered during the day. Mrs. Hall had a few rules; all of Harriet’s families had rules.

The M2 stopped on Madison and 66th street at nine. It was usually on time. Harriet had been taking the same bus for five years. The route through the upper east side of Manhattan passed shiny boutiques and well-dressed people until it reached 110th street. There the neighborhood made a shift to the world where Harriet lived.

“You’re three minutes late, Billy.” She tapped her watch and laughed. The bus driver had become friendly a few years earlier when he realized she was one of his regulars.

“Yeah, Harriet, I know.” He waited for her to pull herself up the first few steps. “Been a busy day.” He looked in his rear-view mirror to check the passengers. “I’ll make it up when we get into the 80’s. I see a seat half way back, move up when you can; I have some good news.”

Harriet smiled, dipped her card into the kiosk, and walked holding on to the backs of each seat until she made her way to the middle of the bus. A slender girl, sitting next to the window, was looking out at two dog walkers.

“Crazy isn’t it? These rich folks buy dogs, and they can’t be bothered to walk them. Too much trouble, I guess; all they want them for is petting.” Harriet lowered herself into the seat next to girl.

The girl smiled but didn’t say anything.

“You work for one them, right?” Harriet asked.

“Well, I don’t know yet.”

“Where you going?”

The girl read from a scrap of paper in her hand, 1105 Park Avenue.

“Ooh, you’ll be working for one of them, all right,” Harriet adjusted her dress.

“I’ve got to get off at 86th Street. I have a job interview,” the girl said.

“I know you didn’t ask for any advice, honey….”

“No, go ahead.”

“Well, just answer their questions, don’t e-lab-o-rate. I’m sure you have references from people who speak their language. You know what I mean, right?” Harriet could tell that the girl was nervous: she kept looking at her watch and touching her hair. Harriet had had a lifetime of jobs: taking care of other people’s houses and families; she wanted to tell the girl about all the lessons she had learned. Instead, they sat next to each other without speaking as the crowd on the bus thinned out.

The young woman shook her head and smiled. “I’m getting off here. Thanks for the advice.”

Harriet held her purse and pushed herself up tentatively. “My pleasure, honey. Maybe I’ll see you on this bus another morning. Good luck.” Harriet sat, opened her purse, and pulled out a well-worn address book held together by two rubber bands. What would Eleanor have said to her, she thought. She thumbed through the pages and found: “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.”

Harriet stared out the window and watched the people starting their day. The bus became less crowded at 86th street so she moved up to the front and sat across from the driver. “Going to be another hot one, Billy.”

“Yeah, might top ninety-eight today. Good thing we ride cool, hey, Harriet? I noticed you were making a new friend back there.” He tilted his head.

“Aren’t you supposed to be watching the road?”

“Gotta keep my eyes on the passengers too, this is New York,” he laughed.

“What’s your good news?”

“I just put a deposit down on a condo in Florida.” He continued to talk about how he was going to rent it out until he retired in two years, how he was going to move to Florida and start a new life.

Harriet stopped listening when he said “new life”. She smiled and thought of the young woman who just got off the bus. “You must do the thing you think you cannot do,” Harriet said.

“That’s good advice.” Billy signaled to pull out into traffic.

“Not my advice ‒ Eleanor’s,” she smiled. Harriet often thought about retiring. She was waiting for this last family, as she called them, to tell her she wasn’t needed anymore. When that happened, she would be ready. Looking over at Billy, she noticed his air of confidence as he managed the bus on the crowded streets.

“You got air conditioning in your house?” he asked.

“I sure do.” She paused as Billy put on the brakes for a pedestrian. “Do you ever think about accidents?”

“Nah, you start thinking about all the things that can wrong in one day, and you freeze up. I have a natural instinct for this job,” he tapped his head with his right hand. “After a while everything that can happen has happened ‒ right?”

Harriet smoothed her dress and resettled herself on the plastic seat. “I guess,” she sighed.

That doesn’t mean we can’t have a surprise once in a while,” he laughed. He looked over at her. “But I prefer not to have them.”

“I don’t like too many surprises, either.” Harriet rubbed her right arm. She had felt a pain this morning when she was lifting Jason, the Hall’s son, out of his crib. “A little stiff today, must have slept on the wrong side.”

“Take it easy in this heat. You’re not in a rush to get to another job, are you?”

“No, Lord, today is an easy one.”

Billy pulled into the bus stop on 125th street. Harriet held on to the railing and waited for him to lower the steps. It was ten, and the sun was already glistening off the mica in the pavement. She took a deep breath and started walking home.
Harlem was slowly being gentrified; it seemed that every week there was a new coffee shop replacing an African American store. White faces, once an oddity, had become commonplace.

Amadou was standing in front of his restaurant, Little Dakar. He smiled when he saw her approach. “Morning, Harriet. You should have been at the VOTE people meeting last night. Sally Thuggs was in rare form; she was booed every time she opened her mouth. The queen of Harlem real estate doesn’t give a damn about us ‒ the people. She only cares about the new faces, the white ones. My landlord sent a notice to Omar about raising the rent. I’m sure I’ll be next.”

Harriet was feeling a little dizzy, and the pain in her right arm was stronger than before. “What you got cookin’ in there, Mr. Sow? I could use a sit-down and a little breakfast before I go home. A little water first…please.” Harriet took a handkerchief out of her purse.

“Come in, come in.” Amadou held the door open for Harriet and called to his wife, Awa, “We have an important guest, fix up some mafe for her.” He turned to Harriet and pointed to a table in the window of the restaurant. “Here ‒ the best seat ‒ just waiting for you.”

Harriet dipped the handkerchief into the ice water and dabbed it on her face.

“You okay this morning? You don’t look so good.”

“Just the heat and, I think, the little boy, Jason, is getting too heavy for me to lift.”

Amadou gave her another glass of water. “Are you going to sell your house to those people?” He looked up at a white man staring at the menu in the window.

“No, Amadou, I’m not selling. I’ve told you before: this is where I’ve lived my entire life, and no person on earth, not even Sally Thuggs, is going to make me move. Besides where would I go?” Harriet moved her fork and put the napkin on her lap. Sitting in silence they watched the people outside. “Melting pot,” Harriet said after a long pause.

Amadou sighed, “Not for long.”

Harriet looked at the bowl of fish stew that Amadou’s wife placed in front of her. “This is exactly what I need, honey.”

Awa smiled and retreated to the kitchen.

“I was thinking about quitting my job.” Harriet surprised herself as she confessed what was on her mind. “I was thinking about how I would spend my days if I didn’t have to go downtown.”

“What is the word they use here, the one when you stop working?” Amadou asked.

“Retirement.” Harriet started to laugh along with Amadou.

“No one retires in Senegal ‒ no. You start working as a child, and, before you know it, you die an old man ‒ still working,” Amadou said.

“Well, I don’t believe I want to keep working till then.” Harriet paused and considered dying in the apartment of her current employer. She rubbed her arm. “No, I’d like to die in my own bed…when I’m asleep.” She took a bite of her stew. “My mother lived until ninety-seven.”

“Our people live a long life; we are all from the same tree, Harriet.”

“When I retire I will make some changes,” Harriet said.

“Changing finances is a difficult endeavor, not something to do lightly…” Amadou gave his advice on how to save money and ended with: “After all, I am a businessman, and I know a few things.”

Harriet smiled and took a sip of water.

 

“That’s all I remember. I took a sip of water, and now I’m here.” She looked up at the emergency room nurse in Mount Sinai Hospital. There was an intravenous tube in her left arm. She felt the wires attached to her chest. “How’d I get here?” she looked around at the drapes pulled on either side of the hospital bed.

“A cab driver brought you in with a Mr. …” the nurse paused.

“Mr. Sow.” Amadou said. “What a surprising morning, hey, Harriet? Nice to see you back on this earth.” He was sitting on the left side of her hospital bed.

“What happened?” Harriet asked.

“We were talking about retirement.” Amadou laughed.

“We think you had a small heart attack; we won’t know until we get the test results.” The nurse put a thermometer in Harriet’s mouth and clipped a small devise to her finger.

Harriet watched the nurse read her temperature. “I can’t remember anything.”

“You may never remember what happened. I need to ask you a few questions, Eleanor.”

Harriet smiled; it was the first time in years that someone called her by her first name.

“How’d you know my real name, honey? Everyone just calls me Harriet.”

“That’s what it said on your registration paper. Should I change it?”

“No ‒ Eleanor will do just fine. Today is my birthday.”

 

 

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This story was previously published in The Front Porch Review,  October 2016

Photo Credit: Jeremy Pollard

 

 

 

A Good Job

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Florence liked routines. On the fortieth floor she had staked out her territory: two conference rooms, four executive suites, and six offices. The other women she worked with didn’t seem to care or notice the spaces they were cleaning.

“Start with the thirty-fourth floor tonight, Flo.” Her supervisor, Anna, marked her name off the assignment list. “The office manager of True North just called. He told Jovack, he wants it done first.” Anna looked up to make sure that the rest of the women were listening. “When you’re finished with thirty-four, you and Sophia can join the others on forty. Work your way down as usual.”

Florence started to take her supplies. Placing them in the caddy attached to the large garbage bin on wheels, she checked her vacuum and made sure that the waste bag was new. Anna handed her the keys to the offices on thirty-four.

“What’s the change for?”

“Big party last night—big mess. They requested special attention.” Anna looked at Sophia and Carmen; they had already put on headphones and were shaking out black plastic garbage bags.

“I’ll page you when I’m finished thirty-four.” Florence told Anna as she pushed her bin to the service elevator where five women were waiting for the doors to open.

Big mess, big party—damn, these people are spoiled. They can’t even hit the garbage can, let alone recycle.” Sophia said.

“Yeah, it’s a joke to them.” Carmen added.

“They have their minds on other things, important stuff we wouldn’t understand,” Florence said.

“And we, we have our minds on their garbage.” Sophia laughed and pushed her cart into the elevator.

The five women followed her into the massive elevator car that was used for moving furniture and large deliveries. She looked over at Sophia who was assigned to join her.

“How do you want to split the floor up?” Florence said.

Sophia took off her headphones. “What?”

Florence repeated herself.

“I don’t care, Flo. You decide.”

The elevator started to climb and at twenty Florence felt her ears pop.

“Let’s see how bad it is first,” she smiled.

The doors opened on thirty-four and the women going to forty acknowledge the others departure.

“Where do you think they had the party? Anna didn’t say.” Sophia turned to Florence as she held the swinging door of the service entrance open for her.

“Let’s check out the large conference room first and then maybe the reception area.”

“I bet the bathrooms are going to be fill with vómito. Que va a hacer que me enferme.”

“Sophia, English…please.”

Sophia gave Florence a look. “You should know what vómito means, Flo. We are going to be up to our elbows in it tonight.”

“You’re right, mierda too.”

Florence didn’t really mind when some of the women spoke Spanish. To her the language was music; it reminded her of her late husband Nat. A few hours of cleaning and she stopped hearing them.

“I wonder how you say mierda in Serbian?” Sophia said.

Both women started to laugh. Russians owned their company, JVB Cleaning. Anna and Jovack were Serbs; when Anna had her boss on the phone, she never spoke English.

As they pushed their carts along one of the halls the automated lights, programed to sensors slowly lit the corridor ahead of them.

“I think I can smell cigarette smoke.”

“That’s not going to be easy to get out of the air by Monday.” Florence said.

“I think I have some air freshener in here.” Sophia looked inside her bin and pulled out an aerosol can.

Florence picked up some plastic cups and napkins as she walked down the hall. The main conference room was in the center of the thirty-fourth floor. It had a sliding wall. When the wall was pulled open, it enlarged the space by half. The windows faced the Chrysler Building. The mahogany table still held plates of uneaten food. The sideboard had empty bottles of wine, a few were tipped over and there were several stains on the rug.

As Carmen had predicted the empty plastic glasses were on the floor next to the garbage. The empty cans and bottles were mixed in with the paper.

The two women separated and worked at opposite ends of the large room.

“You know they weren’t going to hire you, Flo.” Sophia had finished vacuuming and was watching Florence finish polishing the conference table. “Yeah, now they only hired Latinas with thick accents.”

Florence ran her cloth one last time across the table checking for streaks.

“They assume that we don’t speak English well enough to understand them.”

“And…” Florence stopped and looked up at Sophia.

“Well, they never hire Blacks, too much trouble and they’re always late or never show up.”

“And why are you telling me this, Sophia?” Florence started to pull the sliding wall closed.

“My grandmother always told me that if I had something good to say, I should speak and not hold it in. I like you Flo, and I think you do a good job.”

“You mean for a Black person?”

“No, for any kind of a person. Do you have any kids, Flo?”

Florence took a deep breath. She didn’t want to cut Sophia off. It was hard for people to speak from their heart and when they did it should be appreciated.

“Thanks, Sophia. Yes, I have a daughter. She ran off with a Dominican,” Florence said.

“You don’t see her anymore?”

“She left me her daughter to take care of. I see my daughter everyday in my granddaughter’s face.”

“Oh dios mío, estoy tan triste por ti.” Sophia said.

“Let’s keep up our pace. We just started. We can take a break after we finish this floor. The bathrooms are next. Okay?”

“Ugh…you’re right. Let’s get this over with.”

The two women finished the bathrooms and then went in opposite directions. Sophia took the North side of the floor. It was a maze of grey cubicles. Florence could see her head bobbing up and down as she finished one cubicle and moved on to the next.

Florence had just finished two offices. She could see a light through the opaque glass in the door of the next office. She knocked on the door and twisted the knob; it was locked from the inside. Florence was hunting through her ring of service keys when the door opened and a young woman stood facing her. She was dressed in a navy blue business suit and her face was streaked with mascara.

“Sorry.” She looked away and continued to speak. “I came in to do some work and I guess I fell asleep at my desk. Go ahead and take the garbage, I’ll just get my things and be out of your way in a second.” The woman tucked in her blouse and buttoned her jacket.

Anna had told Florence on her first day that she might run into people working late. This was an advertising agency and they had deadlines. Anna told her not to make eye contact, take the garbage and work around them. If she couldn’t clean the office, she should make a mental note of the number and come back to it before she left for another floor. Florence took the small basket filled with shredded paper and dumped it into the green recycle bags. As she left, she noted the room number under the nameplate: Susan Miller VP, 3410.

Florence moved down the hall to the next office. She looked across the floor and saw Sophia stand up and arch her back. She waved at Florence, took off her headphones and yelled: “twenty minutes and I’m finished.”

Florence had just given the thumbs-up when 3410 walked by her. The woman tried to throw a crumbled piece of paper, but missed the bag.

Florence went back to the office; it was empty, she hadn’t notice before that there was no computer or phone. There were no pictures on the wall, no books.

“Are you finished?” Sophia stuck her head into the room. “What’s this,” she looked around, “it’s empty?”

Anna had instructed Florence on her first night to just put the garbage in the black or green bags. “You want to get home? Right? So do I. You’re on a timer and so am I. Remember that.”

Florence must have looked confused.

“Don’t waste your time being nosey. Remember Flo: we need to keep to the schedule. If you don’t, Jovack will find someone else for the job.”

Florence looked at her watch and then looked at the green recycle bag.

“Yes, the office is empty,” she said to Sophia. “I did it in two minutes. I’m right behind you, let’s go up to forty now.”

Sophia pushed her cart ahead to the service elevators. Florence reached in the green plastic bag, pulling out the paper on top; she smoothed it open, folded it and put it into her pocket.

Once they reached the fortieth floor Sofia turned to Florence. “See you when we clock out.” She smiled and put on her headphones.

Florence went straight to the large office suite. It was usually spotless. All it needed was a little dusting and vacuuming. The first time she saw the bathroom that belonged to this office she thought it was just like one in a fancy magazine. It was usually clean unless he had taken a shower; then there were towels all over the floor and shaving cream on the sink.

When she opened the door she thought she heard someone. The door to the bathroom was slightly open and the light went off.

“Buenas noches señor,” Florence said quietly.

“Buenas noches,” said the man.

His face was pale, almost ashen. The hair near his neck was wet and his shirt had a red stain on the left shoulder. When he saw her staring at him, he took the towel that was in his right hand and covered the mark.

“Afeitar, señora. Afeitar,” he said as he walked over to the leather sofa and picked up his jacket.

Shaving, thought Florence? How do you cut your arm shaving? She turned from him and said: “me clean” in a thick accent.

He walked past her without saying anything. Then he pointed to the blood stained towel on the sofa. “Por favor ponga las toallas en el basura, gracias.”

Florence nodded her head and he smiled.

Florence had learned to speak Spanish from her late husband, Nat, who was Dominican. All his friends and relatives called him Nasterio. Her granddaughter, Claudia, called him Nest. Florence smiled and picked up the towel off the sofa, pushing it into the black plastic bag as the man asked her to.

When she turned on the light in the bathroom, her eyes adjusted to the brightness. First she saw the red footprints on the floor and then the towels that had been thrown all over. The sink was filled with smears of blood. All the cabinet doors were open, bottles had their tops off and there was a box of medical adhesive tape that had unrolled across the toilet tank.

“Anna, you need to get up to forty, corner office right now. That’s right, 4000… that’s the number, something has happened here.” Florence spoke into the crackling pager. “I don’t know there is blood all over the bathroom.” She had backed out of the bathroom without touching anything. She stood in the office, waiting for Anna, staring at her reflection in the wall of glass overlooking the city. She looked transparent, almost invisible, against the lights.

When Anna opened the door to the bathroom she gasped. “Did you see anything?”

“He was still here when I walked in, said he cut himself shaving and told me to throw all the towels in the black bags when I had finished cleaning the bathroom.”

“Was he bleeding?”

“Yes, from his arm, I think we need to call the police, Anna.”

“First Jovack, then the cops, Flo.” She took out her cell phone and called her boss.

Anna started speaking in Serbian while she paced back and forth.

“Jovack said he will call the cops and that you shouldn’t say anything. Just finish the rest of the offices on this floor and then go to thirty-nine.”

“There was an awful lot of blood, Anna. Do you think that someone else was in here with him?”

“I don’t know. It is not up to us to think about anything but cleaning. You saw him and he looked like he was okay? Right?”

“Yes, but all this blood. He was very pale.”

“You spoke to him in Spanish like I told you to?

“Yes, Anna, he spoke to me in Spanish too.”

“Good.” Anna’s phone rang and she started talking to Jovack again. She turned her back to Florence and then looked over her shoulder. “What are you staring at? Do what I just told you to. I’ll call you if we need anything else.”

Florence left the room and wiped down one of the two desks that were in an alcove outside of office 4000. As she was reaching for the trash basket under the desk, she saw a framed photograph of the man with two women. The picture was of a celebration; the three people were raising their glasses in a toast. The frame had an inscription: 2013-Most Valuable Employee.

After another six offices and the conference room on forty. Florence checked her watch. It was almost two. She started toward the service elevator and looked at her pager to make sure it was working.

At the second ten minute break nothing was said about the party mess on thirty-four. The women talked about Sophia’s boyfriend; no one said anything about what Florence saw. By five the next three floors had been cleaned and emptied of trash. Anna never called her.

Florence swiped her electronic key card and turned toward the service doors that led to the street.

“Flo!” Anna called after her.

“I’m glad I caught you before you left. Jovack took care of everything.”

“What did the police say?”

Anna looked down at the floor. “They laughed at him, told him that there wasn’t enough blood for a dead bird in the bathroom. Jovack is really pissed Flo; he told me to keep my eye on you and that there better not be a next time.” Anna looked up. “I had to clean that mess up. Next time, do as you’re told…understand?”

Anna was visible shaken. Maybe she could have been fired for what Florence had gotten her into.

“I’m so sorry, it’s just that I never saw anything like that and….”

“Forget what you saw and who you saw.”

“Yes, Anna.”

At five thirty the city looked haunted: the light took another hour to fully expose the street and the buildings in Manhattan.

Florence walked past a few early commuters with their ties loosened. The small brown bag and paper cup of hot coffee identified those who would soon fill the offices she had cleaned.

The subway entrance was across the street. As she descended the steps the heat surrounded her and only when the doors to the subway car opened did she feel revived. Maybe she had imagined everything; maybe she had been watching too many stories on television. Yes, his face was pale, she thought…but they all have pale faces.

The subway car held a few people in uniform: nurses and hospital workers. There were the other cleaners, like her; those were the people that looked like they had been up all night; most of them had their eyes closed. The old man in the corner seat near the door was asleep with his mouth open, snoring as loud as a jackhammer. Florence smiled and thought of Nat snoring, her Nasterio. She told Nat when they first met that she had never heard of his name; it sounded like the flower, Nasturtium. He laughed.

Florence looked at the window across from her and saw her fifty-eight year old reflection. It was then that she felt the papers she had stuffed into her pocket the night before. Not going to ruin my day. Rather read today’s message, she thought.

Poetry in Motion was the title on the small turquoise placard above the subway door. Florence got up, held on to the metal pole and read the poem: Grand Central by Billy Collins. It made sense, she thought; she was a part a “moving hive”.

The return trip from Manhattan to Hart Street took almost an hour. After the subway Florence waited for an express bus and then walked the remaining four blocks home. She believed the last blocks were the best part of her routine. By 6:30 in the summer, the sun was rising across the neighborhood. The sealed storefronts and brownstones were quite; most people were still asleep. The peacefulness gave Florence a hint of what this place must have been like in the old days. That’s what Poppy Daniels called them; he had lived in his house longer than anyone else on Hart Street. His mother owned the house before him. One Saturday night they were sitting on the front stoop trying to catch a cool breeze and he told her how cornfields grew on DeKalb Avenue.

“Imagine that…imagine that,” Florence said, as she climbed her steps and opened her front door.   Florence put her purse on the front table and walked back to the kitchen. She could hear her granddaughter, Claudia, in the bathroom. She surveyed the kitchen, looking for traces of what Claudia might have made herself for dinner the night before. Florence opened the refrigerator door and took out the last piece of cod, milk, and one egg. The rest of what she needed: flour and spices, for her personal fish fry, as she called her dinner-breakfast, was in the cupboard.

She leaned into the back staircase and shouted up to her granddaughter. “What time is your appointment, hon?”.

Claudia was singing along with a pop tune that her grandmother couldn’t understand.

“I said: What time is your appointment, Claudia.”

The music was lowered and she heard the sounds of small heels click to the top of the stairs.

“Ten-thirty, Grandma Wren. I think it will take me ninety minutes.” Claudia paused, and Florence heard papers being rustled. “Don’t make me a big breakfast—please. Only cereal. I’ll do it myself.”

“That’s not the way to start such an important day, hon. You need to be fortified for that kind of journey.”

Florence poured a half-inch of cooking oil into a black iron skillet and turned the gas up to high. There was no further response from Claudia so she set the table. During the bus ride she had decided not to tell her what happened the night before on the fortieth floor. Florence felt the side of her dress with the papers in her pocket. She turned the flame off on the stove.

“What are you reading?”

“Nothing, child, just some papers I found in an empty office.”

“Why did you take them home? Isn’t that just trash?”

“I guess so, but you know sometimes I get curious. Right? Just like you. You know I’ve always told you that you take after me.”

“And not my mom?”

“No, Lord. You do not take after her. Look at you child, all dressed and polished to get to the city.” Florence looked away.

“Sorry. I didn’t mean to mention her. Let’s not ruin the day; it’s going to be a good one for me. I can just feel it.” Claudia looked at her watch. “Oh—it’s already late. I need to do a little reading for my Tuesday night class.” Claudia went back up the stairs. Florence heard her bedroom door close.

“So Susan Miller, 3410, had been fired,” Florence said. She reread the memo addressed to Ms. Miller that stated she had become redundant. Florence went into the living room to find her dictionary. When she returned to the kitchen with the dictionary and her newspaper, she was ready to make her breakfast.

The man’s photo was on page six. He was grinning at the camera and had a young woman on his arm. The caption under the photo read: Donny Palmer, CEO True North, with guest, leaving the Met Gala, in happier times. Florence held the photo closer…the woman was Susan Miller. Florence opened the dictionary and read the definition of redundant: “no longer needed or useful; superfluous. Synonyms: unnecessary, not required, inessential, unessential, needless, unneeded.”

“You be careful out there today, Claudia. The world is complicated and not always what it seems.”

“It’s a job interview, Grandma Wren. Don’t fuss over every little thing, you’ll make yourself sick.” Claudia finished her cereal and rinsed out the bowl.

“Come back to me.” Florence said before the front door closed behind her granddaughter.

Florence’s favorite program The View had started. Starr Jones introduced today’s topic: Sexual Harassment. “When Will It End?” Starr turned to the audience. Behind the five women seated around a table a screen filled with photos of seven young female faces.

“It seems that something happened to Donny Palmer last night.” Meredith almost laughed when a woman in the audience yelled out skewered. “It appears that Donny Palmer…” The screen behind the women changed to a large photo of Palmer, hands in front of his face, trying to hide from the cameras that were blinding him, as he exited the Lenox Hill Hospital. “…may have been stabbed last night. There were no clues and he had no comments on how it might have happened.”

“Shaving.” Florence said as she took a bite of her fish.

End

This story appeared in  – WORK Literary Magazine – in October 217

Photo credit: Ronan Shenhav